Mr. Cj.

This one's for you pal.

I can't speak good.

I struggle saying out loud what's exactly on my mind. The words just aren't there, and no matter how hard i try to find them, they escape me. The cunning nouns, no good scheming verbs, and those ever elusive adjectives.

When i find myself lost in the moment, i focus so hard on what's being said, that i forget to think of what to say. It's always hard to give someone advice that isn't total b.s. when in fact, you have no idea what it is they are going through.


I couldn't help but worry about you. Call me sensitive, call me a weirdo, but i was needless to say, very concerned. I felt as though there was something inside of you desperately trying to get out, and solve the puzzle that was keeping it all inside.

I would love to give you some expert advice. To help you try and solve all of your problems, and set you free, so to speak. To somehow, shed some much needed light on your cloudy dilemma. I'm not here to preach, nor am I hear to blame.

Are you ready for it?

To put it bluntly,

I got nothin'.


All I have are my life lessons as examples. Many things you are going through are yours and yours alone. I have never stepped foot in that arena, I've only watched from the bleachers.

Now these are merely observations, and are in no way, shape, or form, cures.

I see myself inside of you...uh..allow me to rephrase.

I see a lot of my myself in you...eh...wow.

Hmm.

You and I...

We are very similar. There, much better.

We seem to have this curse to see the deeper side of life rather than the obvious everyday marquees.

Anyone can see a rainbow, but not everyone will find the beauty in it. It is so hard to find a silver lining, when you have a bowl full of cereal, and are COMPLETELY out of milk.

It sometime seems, that no matter how good you are, and how hard you try, nothing good seems to find you. Bad things happen to good people, and sometimes the worst people get all the breaks. Is that fair?

Why aren't the good people being rewarded? Where is the justice?

Life's quicksand has taken a hold of you, and you feel as if giving up, would be easier than fighting your way out.

Giving up, is way harder than trying.

I'm here to tell you cj. Never stop fighting. The day you do quit, is the day regrets bash down your door, and move into your mind, and these guys stay forever.

I've quit on lots of things, and believe me my old friend, I regret a great many of them. I've missed many trains, and have had opportunities slap me in the face, only to be shoved into a corner drawer and forgotten.

"God places the heaviest burdens upon those who can shoulder it's weight."

Does this only mean horrible disasters, or sensitive family affairs? Horrendous accidents or social injustice? In my opinion, no. This can be any number of things. Everything from internal conflict, to questioning life, to being alone.

Life is not easy, and for most, that's a fact.

I'd be more patient if I had the time.

I promise you, that someday all your hard work will pay off.

You are one of the most amazing guys I have had the honor to know. You are lighthearted and know how to find humor in almost anything. You are an amazingly gifted writer, and have a wonderfully unique perspective on life. You know what is right and are always striving to set an example, and this includes when nobody is watching. You are aware of your imperfections and are currently fortifying them. You are a wonderful example to me, and always have been. Your compassion and ambition for others is mind boggling, and being sensitive, sure it might suck if you're a dude, but babes ADORE IT. The woman you find will be a lucky one, and she will see all that I've said and more, on this, i have no doubts.

So what if you don't know what you want to be when you grow up. Some people still don't, heck i know i don't and you're young! You at least, have a few years of school under your belt, and as for me, all i got under my belt, are 4 years of waiting tables. Awesome.

All are impressed by the amount of schooling you have applied yourself to. Anyone else would be overwhelmed. There is a lot of knowledge and wisdom in that noggin of yours.

Everyone that knows you, loves you.
So don't give up. Persevere. Breathe. Relax. Fight.

I love you pal, and will always be around, because let's face it, ya can't get rid of me.

And stop looking for her.

She will find you.

Ding. Ding. Ding.


You ready to rumble?


xoxo-Christopher Michael